El Jamra Ma Bte7ru2 Ela Ma7ala..

I have always been the girl that forgives with a blink of an eye. The girl that never carries a grudge. The girl that forgives but never really forgets.
But what do i do when i cannot forgive someone? Etha rabi yaghfer, shlon ana ma aghfer?! bes mani gadra.. ana galbi 3umra ma 3araf el karaheya. bes ga3da a7es ene ga3da AKRAH hal ensan. Ma at7amal asma3 soota aw ashoofa. Ma a6eeeg ashoof soorta. And if i run by his picture bel ghala6 wedii akfakh el laptop 3al 6oufa. I'm hating him with all my might! How can someone SO GOOD do such a terrible thing? mani lagya tharat ra7ma eb galbi! does that make me heartless? does that make me a COLD HEARTED BITCH!? Ya3ni i hear him talk, the old me would have broken down in tears. But now, when i hear all of this. All i feel is pure hatred. I dont even WANT to listen to what he has to say. Nothing he can say could justify what he did. I need him to feel every shred of pain he made me feel. Wedi agool allah ewafga oo esam7a. BES MANI GADRA! I do not wish him well. Mabi agool allah esahella darba. Le'ana ana enthelamt. Le'ana ana mani gadra a3eesh nafs lawadem. I wont say i cant live without him because thats total bullshit. I CAN live without him.

I go out. I laugh along with my friends. But every time i spot someone that resembles him my heart starts thumping. Or when i see his car parked somewhere wedi anzel and smash his windows! Or better yet slash his tires!

He claims ena what he did was 7ag "masla7ti" o 3ashan 3nda "themeer". WHAT A TOTAL LOAD OF CRAP! Your just a TAD too late! sh3ugba??? tawa themeerek yes7a?! tawa etkhaf 3ala masla7ti? TAWEK testaw3eb? Roo7. moot.

Kint nawya i drop that class that we have together. But i wont anymore. Abi akser 3aina. Abi abayenla ena ma haz sh3ara men rasi. That im living my life. That i havent shed a tear. That he DOES NOT know me too well. And that im STRONGER than he thinks i am. Abi yestaw3eb na uhwa NEQ6A men bain ba7ar. Ena uhwa WALA SHAY. Even if it were the last thing i do.

One day im gonna walk straight by him, with my head up high, o ra7 e6ale3ni o ra7 YET7ASSAF 3alay. I was the best goddam thing that ever happened to him.


magool ela 7asbi allah .....


p.s. adri im a little bitter.. o hal post ethayeg el khelg.. bes i had to get it out of my system ;p

You know what?

SCREW YOU.

i can't believe i got tangled in your web of your lies. screw you and screw all the lies that came along with you.

p.s. i will be away for a while. i need to clear my mind and pull myself back together.

Smile..

Smile. It makes people wonder what your up to..

Slow Dancing =)

I miss slow dancing with my grand father.. whenever we'd be at a party or a wedding they would always put that ONE song for couples .. he'd always pull me to dance with him. It was our thing. And how all my cousins would get jealous because he would always pick ME. He would always say that im the prettiest girl in the party(kelesh mo sij ;p). Ya 7elwa. Allah e6aweli eb 3umra ya rab ;* I miss him so much =(.. shakleee im gonna book a flight and go visit him for a couple of days.

aBi Laiih Galaw Sh7afana em3a9ba.. ENAS TARJEFF!! ;P

abi at3alam shlon a3asseb o to be taken SUPER SERIOUSLY lama a3asseb! .. le'ana walah sij AFASHEL!.. when i get mad.. my two year old niece and nephew DIE LAUGHING.. wain haiiibtiii? waiiin prestigeee?! 2 year olds yeth7ekooon 3alay wa7ess roo7iii saida?! WALLAH 7AAAAAAALAAA!! oo etha 3asabt .. my time span is 5 MINUTES!.. tkfoon.. fe a7ad e3asseb 5 MINUTES BES?!?!.. oo sayraaa i never take anything personally .. a7ad ghala6 3alay .. a7ad ga6 kelma.. wana wala 3al baaaal.. o 6aaaaaf ..
oo men enoo3 eleee eseer feeeni "ANA M3ASSSSSSBA !!!!!" oo after 5 minutes ashoof shay OOOOOH SHINY.. and ansa ana llaish 3asabt.. fa shofooli 7al 7ag hal mshkella!..
abi chethe lama a3asseb enas ETKHAF! fa 3almoooni ;p

entaw shlon et3asboon!?

So2al ye6ra7 nafsa!!

George Clooney ORRRRR Pierce Brosnan!?






















le'ana el sara7 bedaw enafsoon ba3ath ;p .. gabel kent amoot amoot amoot AMOOT 3ala clooney.. bes al7een meyoooli sarat ela Pierce Brosnan..
wayyyy ya 7elwaaa..

who would u rather see naked? ;p

THANK GOD IM SINGLE!!!!!

i am beyond PISSSSED OFFFFFF !

shyaboon shabab leq8 sayreen zag? (mo kelhum 6ab3an.. 3ashan el shabab ele yegroon hal post la yaklooni begshoori) ..
3asa ma 6ela3t weya a friend benroo7 elmokan leflani her BOYFRIEND MA YERTHA! sheno ya3ni?! ESHFEEEH SUL6AN ZEMANA! ana agoool estereeee7 wegleb wayhekk.. whats up with that? or lama agooool 7ag another friend ha shrayech ente3asha eb nino.. etgooli i dont think my bf will let me.. i was shocked!! WAYYYY BEYOND SHOCKED!! sheno ya3ni !!!! yet7akam feeha men al7eeen???? i even know a girl her bf yet7akam behdooomha.. and he once broke up with her cause of what she was wearing.. oo oqsem belah ena lebs-ha makan fee shay !!!!!! makan emra9ra9 aw egseer.. kan 3adi !!

do these guys have control issues? does he need to flex his muscles oo yet7akam eb kel esgheera wekbeera 3ashan HE FEELS LIKE A MAN!?????? or are they just insecure ?

7arooooni 3ama b3ain ebleeees-hum! wele 7arni akthar enaa my friends em6aw3eeenhum.
bes el sharha mo 3alaihum! el sharha 3ala my friends ele ma36eenhum wayh.

hefffftt.

its moments like these A7MED RABIIII ena im single. wa7med rabi ena 3umre ma6e7t eb wa7ed chethe. ma3a enna every guy ive been with was jelous and possessive. ya3ni el gheera ele taqmet. bes it was never to this extent.

a3eed wakarer. lazem YESTA2THENOOON menna 3ashan tekremoon EBOLOON! entaw mestaw3ebeeen?

o shay thani b3ad nesaita!! .. one of my friends ele getlukum 3nhum foug... kanat betyeeb a red car.. 7abeebha mo rathy! yabeeeha etyeeb black cuz a7mar "yalfet el nathar".. METKHAYLEEEN!?!?!?!?! 3AMELE FEEHA SEE SAYED!

ge6ee3a.