3eeDKum Embarak

UPDATE: im posting wana mensad7a 3al ba7ar wel jawwww raw3aaa ..baraaaad.. e7taraitaw? ;p

3eedkum Embarak o 3asakum men el 3aydeen wel fayzeen enshalah

Kel 3am wentaw bkhair.

usually i get very excited when 3eed comes. ag3ad men fayir allah akshakh watlabas wa3ayed..

bes madre shfeeni hal 3eeed mekta2ba.. estaghfrlah karhaa el 3eed hal senna.. i wish i can sleep through it.. im not used to not waking up to the sound of her voice.. even if it were a phonecall.. Aw etkoon awal ensana adeg 3alaiha wa3ayed 3alaiha if she wasn't here in kuwait. I miss her.. Allah yer7mch.. May your soul rest in peace enshalah..

True Strength..

Anyone can give up, its the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, thats true strength.

A Daddy's Girl.. Guilty As Charged!

bagoolukum shay.. et3rfooon hal so2al el maleeeq ele sa3at yes2eloona eyah --> "meno et7ebeen akthar?? umech wala ubooch?!" the question they've been asking since i was three! when they ask me this zegan of a question i feel like slapping them! .. le'ana there is no right answer .. etha getluhum baba (which is true.. i do love my dad more).. ya36oooni a lecture about how erasool gal "omak thom omak thomak thom aboooka".. o shloon umi e7malat feeeeni wana kent eb ba6enha 9 months.. o shlooon ehya ele et3ebat 3alay o rabatni o maysheno.. well.. WHAT IF ehya mat3ebat 3alay o rabatni? what if she was barely ever there growing up? what if i dont remember her much in my childhood memories? Is it still wrong to say i love my dad more? but then again.. ive always been a daddy's girl and ive always been my dad's favorite ..

And lets say i say i love my mother more. they give me this look like they're saying YOU UNGRATEFUL LITTLE SHIT!.. al7eeen uhwa ele sarraf 3alaiiiich.. oo edal3ech.. o em3ayshech eb hal 3ezz.. and put a roof over ur head.. o akher shay u pick ur mother?

SEEE?! no right answer!.. POINT PROVEN! so i might as well LIE and tell them i love my parents equally.
SO PLEASE FELLOW READERS.. do not ask hal so2al el sakheeeef ele mala lazma!! le'ana eyeebli 7arej.. the next person that asks me that im going to STRANGLE him or her!

Somebody tell my head to try to tell my heart That I'm better off without you

elyoum shefta! .. i was scared all day that i would see him.. bes lama shefta ma hagait chethe .. mako tharat shoug wala 7anan wala lahfa ;p .. tuwaqa3t ra7 oolah 3alaih.. o galbi ra7 yetga6a3 3alaih .. but NOOOO... .. for some reason jabalt wayha for 2 hours and i felt NOTHING ! yup.. nothing at all ;p g3adt at3assar eb mukani a7awel i feeel something for him.. love.. hatred.. sorrow.. ANYTHING... kent abi ayshay yathbet ena 3nde galb.. bes wain mako shay 6ala3 weyay ;p men siji!!! .. we were stuck eb the same office for practically 2 hours o ma 7assait eb shay .. WALA SHAYYYY.. o ga3da agool ebali haw shlooon? hatha ele kent menhara 3alaih o bamoot 3ashana wal7eeen 7aalaa 7al el maz-hareya ele 7a6eenha 3al 6awla? la la sh7afana.. shlon chethe.. hathi abad ma sarat..

bes la3at chabdi shway .. . i dunno if it was the chocolate milk i had the day before OR sha3ra hatha ele em6awla o mestanes feeeh.. yikhhhhhhh!

im confused ;p .. shouldn't i be feeling something? hehe .. a shred of ANYTHING perhaps?

is my heart turning into stone?

p.s. it was cute though the way he kept on staring at me o 3abala ma la7athT ;p.. kelmetain lek mako ghairhum. ROO7. MOOT.

Mughamarati Bel ma3rath - Part DEUX ;p

Gabel la abdi wagoolukum 3an mughamarati ele bel ma3rath part two ;p .. bomanasabat ena laptopi qarar yente7er o yengessem ne9ain.. re7t sharait wa7ed IDENTICAL to my old laptop.. except el keyboard bes english.. apparently mali was 1.83 something wel aydad mena is 2.22 or something oo el yedeed ele ga3da astakhdema al7eeen asra3 o feeh dvd writer o ashya2 .. wayed khabba 3alay sara7a :P .. yeeebooli ayshay that has a keyboard o beds KAFEEE! la wazeeedkum.. getluhum esheeloon el old hard disk mali .. we7e6oona eb the new laptop.. 3ashan ma7eb sho3oor laptop yedeed ;p .. el mohem.. nerja3 ela me7war 7adeethna.. akamelekum!

• Gabel el efteta7 eb youm.. we had to go en7e6 aghrathna o chethe. Fa there was this girl, amerha mashkook menna.. ya3ni tgdroon etgooloon kent shaka bakhlaq-ha shway.. ya3ni she was dressed up like a boy.. bes 3adi.. SO WAS I .. ray7een we set up o chethe .. i was wearing a training suite o n3al o raf3a sha3ree.. fa i assumed she was dressed that way too 3ashan she had to work.. just like ME! fa alla esalemkem.. khansameeha Sbaya .. Sbayya ray7a rada 3alaiii.. tebtesem.. she nods and waves at me.. wana 6ab3an ma gassart.. amshee wawaze3 ebtesamat.. so while i was standing on a chair hanging something she approaches my partner

Partner: hallaa sbaya shlonech?!
Sbaya (in a VERY husky MANLY voice) hallaa ukhooyy
Me(still not trusting my intuition.. in the spirit of rmethan makent abi a7e6 eb themeti wagool 3anha boya ya nas.. 7ARAM! )

elmohem.. throughout the day.. soolafna.. o we became good friends.. khathat my number.. o my e-mail .. serna rabe3 khalas ;p
so belail .. My partners older brother approaches me and calls me over..
K: sh7afano o yahad! ta3alay..
Me: hala :S .. shfeek
K: sarlech el youm kela et-hathreen weya Sbayya.. sh3ndech?
Me: haww 3adi .. shfeeek
K(metwaheg mo 3aref shloon egoolha): tara boya.. la te7takain feeha wayed..
Me: waiiih 7aram 3alaik ma3ndek salfa mafeeha shay el bent!!

So the first day of the ma3rath comes.. wesalt early .. at around 7:30..
i saw her men b3eed.. so i smiled and waved.. o kamalt sheghle.. i could have sworn ena the WHOLE time id see her lurking around and staring .. and kel ma arfa3 3aini 3alaiha.. etlef wayeha ebser3a.. o yosalni menha msg "shaklech WOW!" .. hmm.. that shoould have been a HUGE HINT .. but NOOOOO.. ekhetkum sh7afana bgara o ma testaw3eb.. . by the second day.. i realized my suspicions were in place. She kept on msging me ALL NIGHT. some msgs were lovey dovey.. oo the whole time bel ma3rath.. she'd be staring.. khare3atni!!!! .. youm gelt 7ag K.. gali "GAL3AA!! ana mo gayelech lat7acheeenha?!".. el bent 6le3at etmeel ela el banat akthar ya jema3a!! wana al7een mebtalsha.. she wont stop calling .. SHSAWE?!

• Me & my partner are supposed to be giving out fliers to the people passing by our booth. And what ive noticed that my partner mo g3d ya36ee wayed nas.
  

Me:Partner!! ! laish mo ga3d ta36eeehum!!
Partner: ma36ee jeyaker ana.
Me: !! (MEN GAAAAAAAAAAL SHALLOW!!!)

• Me wagfa 3al booth and a guy emqater approaches me

Guy: sheno mashroo3kum hatha?
Me (etsame3la wetgooola kelshay for the 100th time!)
Guy: enzain etha ana ba3reth montajatii 3ndukum.. yeseer?
Me: ee eseer ukhooy.. en7e6a 3ndena bel site for free bes lenna nesba basee6a men mabee3atek ele kanat through us.. bes sheno el ashya2 ele etbee3ha?
Guy: jnaa6.. jowati.. kelshay .. 6ab3an kelhum taqleeb .. ajeebhum men el 9eeen wel yaban.. (did he just say taqleed!?)
Me(kal3ada tane7at.. you lost me at taqleed.. anything that came after was a blur!): bes e7na ma na3reth shay taqleed 3andenna.. sorry ukhooy.
Guy: laish laa? tara sooooghum mashi! (YUBA EFHAM YA THOOR!.. egooloon el tekrar ye3alem...?)
Me: ee makhtalafna.. im sure sooghum mashi bes ukhooy e7na mana3reth 3andena ashya2 taqleed.. asfa ukhooy
(and the guy em7anech ela yabeeeee na3reth ashya2aaaa 3andenna!.. hes debating with us.. and gives us his card.. o yabi he shows me samples.. YUBA MANT3AMAL WEYAAA TAQLEEEEED E7NA KHALASSSNA!! HEFFFFF!! MO RATHY YEFHAM! i felt like screaming)

• One of the organizers there kan 7AIIIL ya7laila.. he was so helpful.. o ma gassar weyana sara7a.. all of them ma gasseraw.. bes uhwa belthat.. he helped us with our booth.. ma3a ena he didnt have to .. o he helped us with kelshay.. oo 7AIIIL mo7taram o 7laiw.. so we'd give each other the occasional smile .. he'd come ver several times throughout el ma3rath asking us if we needed anything (so did the others..so dont get any funny ideas.. although he was cute.. hmmmmm) .. and whenever he'd pass by and see me working .. he'd give me the thumbs up.. o theres this girl.. who i thought was bel 30's .. but apparently ehya mowaleed 85 .. lazzga feeh.. wain mayroo7 ehya warah.. o whenever he'd talk to me.. she'd give me the dirtiest looks .. ana shako ;s.. o kelshway lama he'd come over she's come and tell me "hatha katkooooti" OR.. "ib themetech mo katkooot??".. when he isnt looking.. o kanat eb qemat el 7AQARA weyay.. ma3a ena the guy maskeen! 6oool elwagt g3d e7awel essaref-ha aw yen7ash menha.. wehya emchalba feeeh.. o she has the decencey to be rude to me and thinking something is going on ma3a ena its STRICTLY business.! .. SHTABEEEEEN!

ako wayed ashya2 sarat bes chena el post sar 6oweel? ;p awagef hni.

Mughamarati Bel ma3rath - Part 1 ;p

Update!
my beautiful pink laptop broke in half :( .. so im going to buy a new one today untill mine gets fixed..

Khan agoolukum 3an mugharamati o these little incidents that happened bel ma3rath:

• My first customers came. before the opening and i was mentally or physically ready to recieve anyone. But since they were 4-5 men and i was at the booth alone, i had to take them. Kel ma agool kelma in english ezefni eshayeb! .. HAW SHTABE! SHLOON TABEEENI AGOOOOOL VISA OR MASTER CARD IN ENGLISH?! KHAIR!!

• awal ma balash el efteta7.. wagfa weya my partner at the booth.. ma w3ait ela a man comes surrounded by other men o like 20 reporters following him and i was blinded by FLASHES!! .. not to mention being bombarded by questions! chan atwahag .. wan7ash :P .. and i left my partner standing alone maskeeen uhwa ele kalaha :P .. later on gali yal habla that was haytham el shaye3.. well i didnt want to look like a complete idiot on camera ! i was petrified! 7assait chenna papparazi :P yess im a coward
  

• youni 2 guys el booth.. g3adt ashra7luhum 3an kelshay.. akher shay chan the guy e6ale3 el brochure wegooli:

Guy: hatha raqam meno feekum? raqmech wala raqma?
Me: Hatha el call center ukhooy.. la raqmi wala raqma. etha 7athretek 3ndek ay as2ela deg 3ala hal raqam.
Guy: entaw sheghelkum 24 sa3a??
?Me: bel website malna.. tegdar etdesh 3alaih o etsawe 6alab aw etdezlena e-mail ay wagt.. we7na we'll contact you. CHAN JELEEEL EL 7AYYYAAAAAAAA yaghmezli!! (YUP HE WINKED AT ME!)
Guy: ya3ni 3adi adeg 3ugub el 12 am 3adi?? ;)" with a STUPID grin on his face. I WANTED TO SMACK HIM! ..
ana wayhi sar a7mar o tuwahagt! ana broo7i ata2te2 when i talk to guys, o aste7e! hal marra hatha eyeeni wegooli chethe?! la la la!!

• Yanni wa7d thani el booth while my partner was busy with someone else. 7elo? shara7tla kelshay.. chan yes2alni:

Man: Hatha ukhooch?
Me: no hatha shereeki
Man: shlon et3arfoon ba3ath? et9eeroon 7ag ba3ath? (ENTA SHAKO!!!!)
Partner jumps in and says
Partner: ee tegdar etgoool
Man: ee shlooon?
Partner: nesayeb (through clenched teeth)
Man looks straight at me and says
Man: hatha zoujech? (i laughed!! .. my partner is 16 years old.. baby!!! oo eg9eer 7AIL! .. kent bagooola ya3niii law farggg el 3umur 6afat 3alaik.. then farg el 6oool ham e6oof 3alaik?!!!)

• 6ab3an i dont even want to mention the people that come and edeshoon eb bal3oooomi men kether their questions! .. OH YES PLEASE BOMBARD ME WITH UR NEVER ENDING STUPID QUESTIONS CAUSE IM NOT TIRED AND I DONT HAVE A MILLION PEOPLE WAITING BEHIND YOU.. OH AND THE FACT THAT I NEED TO PEEE AND CANNOT TAKE A BATHROOM BREAK BECAUSE OF U!!

• ORRRR .. eyooni two guys

Guy1: mashroo3kum sheno bethab6? ana shefta 3ala el facebook bes medri sheno hatha
Me(starts explaining)
Guy2 interrupts and says: ee shefna grouBBBBBBBBech 7ata thefnach bes ma sawaitay add
Me(tetwahag kal3ada) Ukhooy al7een adez a7ad yeshra7lek :)
then i smile and walk away as usual!
shsaw ya3ni kheft!
o chaykaw el msg ele daza on facebook
شخبارج انا امس كنت بالمعرض
الله يعطيكم العافيه عليه كان خووش معرض
والموقع وايد حلو
انا الي امس كنتي قاعده تشرحين لي
:)))
بالصدفه شفت اسمج قلت اكيد اهي الي امس كانت تشرح لي
فرصه سعيده خيتوو :))

khayto? KHAYTO?! meno khaytoo?! AGOOOOOOOOL latgooli khayto la KAFFFFF! thaneyan.. EL3AN KHAYREK SHENO E3GAIDI!!!

akamelekum b3dain ;p

Prince Charming 7athrettek Meta Etsharref!!

Tadroon etha yani Prince Charming sheno awal shay basaweeh?!


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I'm gonna SLAP HIM wagoola WAINEK MEN ZEMAN!!?

7ayakum!

Update!

• I leave at around 11:45-12ish.. bes el ma3rath laih 1 am ..
  
• My feet hurt, im tired as hell, ive been working non-stop for days and im basically exhausted BUT I FEEL GREAT!!!! Today was the first day of the ma3rath and we're already getting SUBSTANTIAL amounts of feedback and mail! and we still havent launched are website yet! .. MASHALAH MASHHALLAH MASHALAH! dont wanna jinx it.. STILL 2 DAYS LEFT! .. Come if u can :)
  

Ma3rath Ebda3ati starts TOMMORROW! .. its for 3 days.. the 18th, 19th and 20th at movenpick - freezone.. it starts at 9 pm.. 7ayakum ;p .. ill be there.. at one of the booths and u can take a wild guess at who i am ;) ..

if you come write a comment with ur e-mail ta7at and guess who i might be .. the person that gets it right will get an e-mail from me.

See u guys there ;p

3amma!!

elyoum.. i had to go to avenues with my mom to buy a few things nagseeni.. re7naa 3al 8 3ashan net7asha el za7ma.. so my mom walks into boots and i go to lucky brand.. wala 7athretta wa7ed la7egni!!! .. khara3ni.. i ignored him.. o kamalt my shopping.. wana 6al3a wala 7athretta wagefli barra.. lama marait chan egooli tara raqme ga6aita bel chees.. HAWWWW!!!!!!!! WHAT THE FELLLLLLLL! shlooon??? META!?!?!!? emdaah!?!? besmellah shakait eb 3umre.. how the hell could he get close enough ena ege6 raqma ib one of my carrier bags without me noticing?! 3AMA B3AIN EBLEEESA!! .. so he must have been inches away from me to drop it in there! .. wana wala 3al baaaaal.. eb 3alam thani.. just the thought of it makes me shudder..

lama wesalt 3nd umi .. a6el dakhel each cheees.. o fe3lan.. there was a fatoora rolled up o 3alaiha raqam o esem "3ADEL".. wai3 wai3 wai3! .. men kether ma la3at chabde qalaita 3al arth.. 7ata ma ne6art agrab ezbala.. 3assa bes tengass eeedek ya jeleel el 7ayya!! .. etmed eeedek dakhel cheeeeeeesssi ?! if i was QUEEN id have his hands cut off! yetjara2 weye soubi el KALB!

ana ba3aref.. ele methla men sej-hum??? 3abala nathra mennnna ra7 anfeten o seeda badeg 3alaih??? how does that work exactly? e6eeee7ooon men 3aini el banat ele yakhthoon arqam. ya3ni ya BAQARA methel ma ta3araf 3alaich bel share3 .. bered eqellech bel share3! .. a7ess its degrading weqalal men gader el bent!..

im curious.. girls that take numbers from random guys.. and the other way around.. what do they expect from each other?? oo sheno nethamhum?

El Jamra Ma Bte7ru2 Ela Ma7ala..

I have always been the girl that forgives with a blink of an eye. The girl that never carries a grudge. The girl that forgives but never really forgets.
But what do i do when i cannot forgive someone? Etha rabi yaghfer, shlon ana ma aghfer?! bes mani gadra.. ana galbi 3umra ma 3araf el karaheya. bes ga3da a7es ene ga3da AKRAH hal ensan. Ma at7amal asma3 soota aw ashoofa. Ma a6eeeg ashoof soorta. And if i run by his picture bel ghala6 wedii akfakh el laptop 3al 6oufa. I'm hating him with all my might! How can someone SO GOOD do such a terrible thing? mani lagya tharat ra7ma eb galbi! does that make me heartless? does that make me a COLD HEARTED BITCH!? Ya3ni i hear him talk, the old me would have broken down in tears. But now, when i hear all of this. All i feel is pure hatred. I dont even WANT to listen to what he has to say. Nothing he can say could justify what he did. I need him to feel every shred of pain he made me feel. Wedi agool allah ewafga oo esam7a. BES MANI GADRA! I do not wish him well. Mabi agool allah esahella darba. Le'ana ana enthelamt. Le'ana ana mani gadra a3eesh nafs lawadem. I wont say i cant live without him because thats total bullshit. I CAN live without him.

I go out. I laugh along with my friends. But every time i spot someone that resembles him my heart starts thumping. Or when i see his car parked somewhere wedi anzel and smash his windows! Or better yet slash his tires!

He claims ena what he did was 7ag "masla7ti" o 3ashan 3nda "themeer". WHAT A TOTAL LOAD OF CRAP! Your just a TAD too late! sh3ugba??? tawa themeerek yes7a?! tawa etkhaf 3ala masla7ti? TAWEK testaw3eb? Roo7. moot.

Kint nawya i drop that class that we have together. But i wont anymore. Abi akser 3aina. Abi abayenla ena ma haz sh3ara men rasi. That im living my life. That i havent shed a tear. That he DOES NOT know me too well. And that im STRONGER than he thinks i am. Abi yestaw3eb na uhwa NEQ6A men bain ba7ar. Ena uhwa WALA SHAY. Even if it were the last thing i do.

One day im gonna walk straight by him, with my head up high, o ra7 e6ale3ni o ra7 YET7ASSAF 3alay. I was the best goddam thing that ever happened to him.


magool ela 7asbi allah .....


p.s. adri im a little bitter.. o hal post ethayeg el khelg.. bes i had to get it out of my system ;p

You know what?

SCREW YOU.

i can't believe i got tangled in your web of your lies. screw you and screw all the lies that came along with you.

p.s. i will be away for a while. i need to clear my mind and pull myself back together.

Smile..

Smile. It makes people wonder what your up to..

Slow Dancing =)

I miss slow dancing with my grand father.. whenever we'd be at a party or a wedding they would always put that ONE song for couples .. he'd always pull me to dance with him. It was our thing. And how all my cousins would get jealous because he would always pick ME. He would always say that im the prettiest girl in the party(kelesh mo sij ;p). Ya 7elwa. Allah e6aweli eb 3umra ya rab ;* I miss him so much =(.. shakleee im gonna book a flight and go visit him for a couple of days.

aBi Laiih Galaw Sh7afana em3a9ba.. ENAS TARJEFF!! ;P

abi at3alam shlon a3asseb o to be taken SUPER SERIOUSLY lama a3asseb! .. le'ana walah sij AFASHEL!.. when i get mad.. my two year old niece and nephew DIE LAUGHING.. wain haiiibtiii? waiiin prestigeee?! 2 year olds yeth7ekooon 3alay wa7ess roo7iii saida?! WALLAH 7AAAAAAALAAA!! oo etha 3asabt .. my time span is 5 MINUTES!.. tkfoon.. fe a7ad e3asseb 5 MINUTES BES?!?!.. oo sayraaa i never take anything personally .. a7ad ghala6 3alay .. a7ad ga6 kelma.. wana wala 3al baaaal.. o 6aaaaaf ..
oo men enoo3 eleee eseer feeeni "ANA M3ASSSSSSBA !!!!!" oo after 5 minutes ashoof shay OOOOOH SHINY.. and ansa ana llaish 3asabt.. fa shofooli 7al 7ag hal mshkella!..
abi chethe lama a3asseb enas ETKHAF! fa 3almoooni ;p

entaw shlon et3asboon!?

So2al ye6ra7 nafsa!!

George Clooney ORRRRR Pierce Brosnan!?






















le'ana el sara7 bedaw enafsoon ba3ath ;p .. gabel kent amoot amoot amoot AMOOT 3ala clooney.. bes al7een meyoooli sarat ela Pierce Brosnan..
wayyyy ya 7elwaaa..

who would u rather see naked? ;p

THANK GOD IM SINGLE!!!!!

i am beyond PISSSSED OFFFFFF !

shyaboon shabab leq8 sayreen zag? (mo kelhum 6ab3an.. 3ashan el shabab ele yegroon hal post la yaklooni begshoori) ..
3asa ma 6ela3t weya a friend benroo7 elmokan leflani her BOYFRIEND MA YERTHA! sheno ya3ni?! ESHFEEEH SUL6AN ZEMANA! ana agoool estereeee7 wegleb wayhekk.. whats up with that? or lama agooool 7ag another friend ha shrayech ente3asha eb nino.. etgooli i dont think my bf will let me.. i was shocked!! WAYYYY BEYOND SHOCKED!! sheno ya3ni !!!! yet7akam feeha men al7eeen???? i even know a girl her bf yet7akam behdooomha.. and he once broke up with her cause of what she was wearing.. oo oqsem belah ena lebs-ha makan fee shay !!!!!! makan emra9ra9 aw egseer.. kan 3adi !!

do these guys have control issues? does he need to flex his muscles oo yet7akam eb kel esgheera wekbeera 3ashan HE FEELS LIKE A MAN!?????? or are they just insecure ?

7arooooni 3ama b3ain ebleeees-hum! wele 7arni akthar enaa my friends em6aw3eeenhum.
bes el sharha mo 3alaihum! el sharha 3ala my friends ele ma36eenhum wayh.

hefffftt.

its moments like these A7MED RABIIII ena im single. wa7med rabi ena 3umre ma6e7t eb wa7ed chethe. ma3a enna every guy ive been with was jelous and possessive. ya3ni el gheera ele taqmet. bes it was never to this extent.

a3eed wakarer. lazem YESTA2THENOOON menna 3ashan tekremoon EBOLOON! entaw mestaw3ebeeen?

o shay thani b3ad nesaita!! .. one of my friends ele getlukum 3nhum foug... kanat betyeeb a red car.. 7abeebha mo rathy! yabeeeha etyeeb black cuz a7mar "yalfet el nathar".. METKHAYLEEEN!?!?!?!?! 3AMELE FEEHA SEE SAYED!

ge6ee3a.