Saturday, August 16, 2008

a3arefak Nafsi.. Ana Eli..


a3arefek nafsi:
  • Ana ele kent as-har lyaali lama bes kent asme3ek ETKE777 men khoafi 3alaik.
  • Ana eli kan ye3tefes youmi kela etha sheftek za3lan aw met-thayeg
  • Ana ele kent asawe el MOSTA7EEEL bes 3ashan artheek
  • Ana ele makent artha ay ensan ethemek eb shay aw egool 3anek KELMAAA shaina.
  • Ana ele kent AYENNN WASTEKHEFFF etha sema3t enek met3awer
  • Ana ele kent an6er yam talfooni sa3at lama kent etgooli enek betghoo9
  • Ana ele kent misti3ida ayawe3 roo7i 3ashan bess ashoofek shab3an
  • Ana ele kent ahed edenyaa wayeelek eb la7tha etkoon feeha mi7tajni
  • Ana ele kent aza3el edenya kelha wala ena ashoofek enta za3lan.
  • Ana ele kent misti3ida an6erek sneeen o bneeen
I have never loved anyone the way i loved you. Oo bel akher.. what do i have to show for it? a broken heart? an irreparable heart? a heart that will never be whole again without you?

But there are things you do not know about me:
  • i am NOT weak
  • i AM gonna pull my life back together
  • i am going to get stronger
  • i am NOT going to cry every time i see you
  • i REFUSE to let myself give in to depression and bitterness and sorrow
  • i WILL NOT check my phone every MINUTE hoping to see a msg or call from you
  • My heart WILL NOT jump every time i hear your name or see a car just like yours.
and last but not least I WILL MOVE ON, not because i dont love you anymore, but because i deserve to be happy.

20 comments:

Gee™ said...

move on 7ayati .. its a matter of time o u'll be over hal salfa inshalla ;**

Smart-y said...

yes, entai aqwa mn cthee.

I really like the way u write, mashallah :)

and u deserve all the happiness in the world!

Sh7afana said...

├ƓɧαɗσσƦ┤™
enshalah .. bes tadreen shel balwa lekbeera? we have a class together next semester .. o im trying ena i switch bes all sections are FULL.. o magdar i drop it le2ana teta7li mawad..

Smarties
thank u :) im flattered wallah..
ma3ad ena up till now.. i never wrote as much..

thank u! ur too sweet

Anonymous said...

mmmm what can I say more than 'LIFE IS A BITCH' excuse my french!

We are stronger and better than any person! that's what I learned after a 5 years of heart broken relationship! Time is a healer and as it will heal ur heart it will make u a stronger and better person...

Anonymous said...

and ya spill it all out you will feel relaxed with time!

jooj said...

no ones worth it, and like amuq said "life is a bitch", but you have to be bitchier to move on :)
w kafoooo 3alich :D the first step is not checking your phone every 5 mins!!

Anonymous said...

tara may9err chithi khalas ! lol mo ma3qola shloon kel eli etgooleena im going through! its tooo damn weirddddd ! akhaf we shared the same dude :P

Charmbracelet said...

good girl..move on !;)
-noonie

Sh7afana said...

..::Amu::..
it is.
i hope so. i really do.

jooj
and the thing is, just as i stopped checking he starts calling!! ya3ni i went out with a friend today and left my phone at home, i just came back.. alga msgs o missed calls. shesalfa ;p

Meticulous
LOL! et-hagain? la ma3teqed.. one thing is not is a cheater :) and i know that for sure.

Bebe n' Noonie
mashkoora ;p

Charmbracelet said...

sa7 elsanich!

-bebe

Sh7afana said...

BEBE EN6EGAT !!! ayabeb ? :p

Anonymous said...

*hugs*

inshallah one day you`ll be able to move on bedon la a7ad yegoolich inah you need to move on wala you think about it. ya3ni min nafsich automatic you do.

makes sense? ana gomt a5arbi6 ilyoom. i need to sleep :p

*hearts*

Sh7afana said...

killer marshmallow
yeah .. a little bit i guess ;p
enshalah allah yesma3 menech .. thanks

Hoodii said...

yaa thats what u should do move on and let it go and dammn i was really feelin ur words ;D

Anonymous said...

i didnt read all the comments fa madre if someone brought up the class ur taking together or not.. bs i say dont switch.. stay in that class. the way i see it, its a privilege in disguise. its ur chance to show him that u r, in fact, strong enough to be around him, that u dont care anymore, and that u have resumed ur life perfectly without him around. moreover, its a chance to rebuild ur confidence in urself and regain ur strength while being around him. that way, u dont just ACT strong in front of him, u actually BECOME strong, making it MUCH easier for u to move on and live ur life the way u should.. no man should get the right to ruin any woman's life because he feels like it.. prove to him and to all the female readers of this blog that we are independent and stronger than we portray

LOL i talk a lot.. anyways.. hope it all works out! keep us updated ;)

Sh7afana said...

Hoodii
enshalah :)

Anonymous
wow. enshalah. will keep that in mind :)
and i like people who talk alot.

Anonymous said...

hehe too bad wouldve been cool though :P

Anonymous said...

Take it easy...the first 50 years are difficult, you'll start getting better after that ;-)

Sh7afana said...

met
what would have been cool? ;p

theadrenalinefix
well THANK YOU! thats a relief ;p

Oranjina fadidra said...

good for u