I have always been the girl that forgives with a blink of an eye. The girl that never carries a grudge. The girl that forgives but never really forgets.
But what do i do when i cannot forgive someone? Etha rabi yaghfer, shlon ana ma aghfer?! bes mani gadra.. ana galbi 3umra ma 3araf el karaheya. bes ga3da a7es ene ga3da AKRAH hal ensan. Ma at7amal asma3 soota aw ashoofa. Ma a6eeeg ashoof soorta. And if i run by his picture bel ghala6 wedii akfakh el laptop 3al 6oufa. I'm hating him with all my might! How can someone SO GOOD do such a terrible thing? mani lagya tharat ra7ma eb galbi! does that make me heartless? does that make me a COLD HEARTED BITCH!? Ya3ni i hear him talk, the old me would have broken down in tears. But now, when i hear all of this. All i feel is pure hatred. I dont even WANT to listen to what he has to say. Nothing he can say could justify what he did. I need him to feel every shred of pain he made me feel. Wedi agool allah ewafga oo esam7a. BES MANI GADRA! I do not wish him well. Mabi agool allah esahella darba. Le'ana ana enthelamt. Le'ana ana mani gadra a3eesh nafs lawadem. I wont say i cant live without him because thats total bullshit. I CAN live without him.
I go out. I laugh along with my friends. But every time i spot someone that resembles him my heart starts thumping. Or when i see his car parked somewhere wedi anzel and smash his windows! Or better yet slash his tires!
He claims ena what he did was 7ag "masla7ti" o 3ashan 3nda "themeer". WHAT A TOTAL LOAD OF CRAP! Your just a TAD too late! sh3ugba??? tawa themeerek yes7a?! tawa etkhaf 3ala masla7ti? TAWEK testaw3eb? Roo7. moot.
Kint nawya i drop that class that we have together. But i wont anymore. Abi akser 3aina. Abi abayenla ena ma haz sh3ara men rasi. That im living my life. That i havent shed a tear. That he DOES NOT know me too well. And that im STRONGER than he thinks i am. Abi yestaw3eb na uhwa NEQ6A men bain ba7ar. Ena uhwa WALA SHAY. Even if it were the last thing i do.
One day im gonna walk straight by him, with my head up high, o ra7 e6ale3ni o ra7 YET7ASSAF 3alay. I was the best goddam thing that ever happened to him.
magool ela 7asbi allah .....
p.s. adri im a little bitter.. o hal post ethayeg el khelg.. bes i had to get it out of my system ;p
29 comments:
ashwaa u didnt drop
ana agool belle may7aftha :D
aha al7een 3raft lesh kentay em39ba@@
5la9 5la9 el salfa 6aret al7een bayantena ur stronger than ever and I'm happy for you girl.
WAY MOTHO3EECH WLH A5NGTNEE AL3BRH ... !!
ANA MRET BHL 7ALH OW GLT NFS KLAMICH BS M3A ALWGT T3BT .. !! OW STILL T3BANA 9J BENT LH KL SHAY BENT LH ENH WLA SHAY ow eny mo wagfah 3leeh bs ana mn da5l glbee y7trg .. ymkeen wth3ech m3ah `3er 3nee ymkeen klshay `3err bs wlh aljr7 mn sh59 `3alee ma ayroo7 low shinoo 9ar !!
ay ythayig il5ilg??? im like jumping on the qanafa cheering u on! ebarid ilchabd bil3ax!!!:D:D
um mit3ib
eb fathlech ;p law mo entay chan ana sa7ba awragi men el jam3a b koborha..
anon
=)
p-ella
thank uu babe
kuwaitiya
la enshalah eroo7.. ana akhalee eroo7.. ana agool sallay rak3etain.. terta7ain..
silver
with ur pom poms?
hehe thank u babe
ee wlh enshalah ;P ow thanx ee al7mdalah ark3teen wayed at5fef ;)
fat7at elbanzeen bel sayart il yideeda '05 o 3ogob 9ayren bedon gofol .
mix coke eb banzeena . that should do the trick .
u go girl! ;p
Just walk away...take a new step forward...life will lead u to a new start...
Rem don't look back at your past :) your future is bright and shining.
All this for over one month...it sounded like years...take it easy
I thought u were single? Wela he's just a friend ?
am sorry babe..dnt get him back mala da3e, God will
-N~
oofff you took the words right out of my mouth.
that's how i feel like right now. wai3!
kuwaiteya
:)
slai7e6
3ad uhwa khebel.. he NEVER locks his car.. 3umrek sheft wa7ed ehed sayarta unlocked wekhali sweetch esayara INSIDE THE CAR??
omtantoo7
hehe.. ee shaj3eeni :P kho ana bser3a asheesh!
amu
enshalah :)
theadrenaline
its a loong story.. i might post abt it someday
charm
ee babe.. ive been single for a month..
souriree
eeee 7ada..
well 7abeebty u have to know that halshi yamshi eb damhum, they can live without breaking our hearts, ya ema they cheat, or mu3amla methel el zift , o 7achi eyeeb el qatha, cheesy love elie t7seena ashkra chathab,, tra waied nader ina u find someone that really LOVES you!
kilhum chthe so its better not to trust a man ever again, o b3deen eyoon ygloon el 3aib feena e7na el banat, intow thb6ow 7alkum awal 3ala shan e7na nenthbe6 m3akum o way3a :@
:( u make me sad today! SCREW HIM! AND NO UR NOT MEAN! UR JUST HUMAN! oo its normal to feel that way itha someone hurt u ! AKEED UR NOT MEAN! SMILE :(
t3jbeeni! kalam kbeer .. its his loss.. ho il 5sran and he'll figure that out sooner or later
thakarteeny eb e*3neyat Carrie Underwood - Before He Cheats...
she entertains herself alot with his car
you might get some more ideas if you hear the song ;)
J o u j a™
3ad walah i dont want to sound vain and full of myself.. bes alot love me and have proved so over the years. bes ana nagait HATHA.
enchanteaurs
he didnt just hurt me .. he tore me into pieces ;p
jooj
ur too sweet :)
ĐǻñĎõøðñ
haha .. yeah i know the song.. and good for her.. wallah zain etsawee. i would do it men el 7arra ele feeeni.. bes we have alot of mutual friends.. and i would seem like the psycho ex girlfriend hehe ..
fool me once shame on u ..
fool me twice shame on me =)
ana bgol shay wa7ed
la t3idin hal'3al6a =)
yes thats our problem wallah, the ppl who are crazy about us n5leehum o dayman ne5tar azfat wa7ed, sometimes i feel that i miss my Ex cuz he was the best one and he really loved me bs ana ghabya i left him 3ala shi sa5eef :(
zain sawaitai.. 6al3ai kel ely 3ndch out of ur system!! hatha a7san shai :)
w 3afya 3ala sh7afana ely lil7een qaweya! tra mu 3'ala6 nekrah, shnu mu bashar e7na? bs la telomeen nafsech for how you feel.. hathy 7alaa 6abe3ya fe ay bashar 7ta 7q ely methlech ma yekrah :)
cookies
sa7 elsanech ;p
artful
latkhaf.. ghal6a walan to3ad ;p
jouja
waih :S.. yalla ma 3alaih.. allah e3awthech bele a7san mena
smarties
madre bes enta mo mestaw3eb shlon aana ma akrah.. 3umre ma keraht a7ad.. oo akthar ensan 7abaita.. karahta hal kether?.. :S shda3wa?
3andi 6alab zghayer 7ail 7ail nitfa ya3ni..
momken itghayreen your font? cuz ana tigdireen itgooleen shway 3amya fa mu wathi7!
merci!!!
hopefully with time u wont have to forgive him ul just forget he exists
ruby woo
ma 6elabtay shay ;p
dooda
im halfway there :)
get it all out babe !!!!!!
met
enshallah
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